Sunday, September 12, 2004

Aargh,i think i have no courage or not much self-confidence anymore waaaaaaaaah..need to get back to tkd trainings n sparrings to regain it i tink..i wanna go back trainings!!!!!!!!!!n i mean proper trainings, not like some sch where diff. seniors have diff. styles of trainings so the trainees end up blur blur,or lose interest like me..that is so sad..

Anyway,y i said i have no more courage is coz...i cant let go of the railing when tryin to ice-skate!!!!arrgh,its not that i cant let go..its i don't want to let go..that railing over there Is my boyfriend and i'm gonna stick besides it no matter wat..i lurrvve the railing too much to let go hahaha.."-,-(lame!!)..Fine,it was my first time stepping into the skating shoes and the skating rink, and i knew that the hardest step is to let go of the railing..so i kept holdin on to the railing hha..Besides making excuses not to let go of it, i kept screaming my head off thinkin i'm gonna fall every few seconds..o.o n i hate the fact that i kept tripping on the ice >.<>

Tink maybe tomorrow i'll go down to Tan tock seng to see piggy who got himself admitted recently for dengue fever n blurred vision-sighs- now its the chicken flu season and he has to be the One to bring the Pig virus back hha..dunno wats wrong with his eyes, really hopes its nothin serious..i do not want to lose another friend..n i mean it..The fact that he's havin blurred vision kept remindin mi of someone whom i lost to eye cancer..choy!really hopes its nothin like dat or its gonna crush me bad..-bites lips- i do not want to lose anyone i knew ever again..

'in my attempt to treasure everybody every single moment, i ended up losing tracks of who r the most impt in my life..and losing all instead..'
n i'm sorry for that. Jus wants u all to know that even though i may not be able to meet you, talk to you everyday of ur life, all of u are always in my heart, esp deep in my memories..



Siti Nuraishah :+: Landed On :+: Sunday, September 12, 2004

12th October 1985