Thursday, October 28, 2004

Ayy haha!!I'm So bored that i'm downloading aaron carter's songs..so much so he's entitled to sue me coz now i haf like 3/4 of his songs from his first album wahaha!!His songs are nicer when he was younger..innocent some more; i like his 'i'm gonna miss you forever' music video, so sweet!! Y am i bored?coz I can't move boulders in my pokemon game so i'm stuck and i cant play on arrggh!!Little boy told mi to restart but i'm TIS close to beatin the elite four n goin to another part of the game arggh..or should i start on pokemon sapphire hha..but nooo,not willin to give up ..now havin internal debates within myself(abt pokemon,damn pathetic hha!)

Went to sign contract wif TBC this afternoon to work in the expo sale next month..at least that job is confirmed..adecco no news as usual that i'm movin on ar..*sighs*i tink i'm stressin myself over jobs n gettin myself up into knots..esp wif dad buggin mi to work at the new 7-11 downstairs..his reasons: CLose to home,dont waste transport fee,can go home eat supper if hungry no need waste money...its all abt money to him!..well, he did brough up 'safety' and 'convenience'..i don't mind la but heck,they required mi to work 4-5 days for 6-8 hrs each time!!I cant cope for sure lor, esp when school starts...and this kind of jobs will want to bond ppl for 3mths or more lor..*stressed*..Little boy n my friend told mi not to work coz the company'll bug mi durin sch term to cum down n work..n to start standin up for my dad, not let him push mi around but how can..i'm the Only child whom he can push on to depend on..i can't fail him..my relationship wif him was already so bad the past year that i really don't want a sequel..when i think back the days when he refused to take leave to take my report card and had to trouble my brother to do it..when i thought of how i broke down n said he didnt believe in me (regardin my studies in jc) to my mum(who broke down too)..when i thought of how he had to acc mi to take my hep.b shot and the coldness btw us so evident that others could see and feel it too..last yr was a horrible time for mi n him..until i had to beg for 4giveness last hari raya for him to juz take care of the family and not just work,work,work..it was That bad..it spilled over to this year when i screamed at him for throwin away the kitten that i luv for like 3rd time when i had painstakinly searched n brought it home..*frustrated* and now this 7-11 thing..urgh!!But i do know whateva i do will not be enuf in his eyes so y bother..shud juz heck care this job for seriously i can't cope workin 4-5 days per wk lor..esp if i want to get back to the uni.route..

Tis noon, little boy n me walked past a couple of old men in Raffles place lookin for ppl to help them with their bills or directions..they were like feelin lost, coz i tink they didnt noe how to read their bills or letters, and there's no one in the family to help..Sad,modernisation took over singapore and left the old folks on their own,helpless and blind to the new world they now are in..Wat if i could set up a place where these ppl could come to juz for help with translations of their bills n letters..like a congregation old folks kinda centre..charge for free or super low fees of course..nah,it should be a NPO so those wif hardly enuf money to live on can cum for free translations and helps for their stuff..Sometimes i feel angry at how these ppl are left to fend for themselves, sometimes i wonder where their children are(though some are childless of course, or some are stubborn enuf to make a livin on their own and not be seen as charitable cases)..Coz i knew somewhere in the hdb blocks that were set aside for these old folks, there are so many stories left untold of how they are left behind wif the effect of modernisation takin place rite here, rite now. Some collect tin cans for a living, or boxes..or sell newspapers..or tissues..or nothin at all..thats one thing i learnt from workin at Cheers;gettin to know these old folks n how they are coping wif the new world..on their own usually..Sometimes i wonder if only i could help out more..make a difference in some ways..*Dreams*.."When ppl say they dun haf Time to help out or volunteer, they're talking rubbish"-Unknown. Aay, thats y i never say. rubbish me :D FOndly remembering

APek(who collects boxes diligently, even wakin up in the wee hours of the nite to find more boxes)..whu held a rusty, broken but sharp penknife to his lips when his hands are full tearin the boxes apart to flatten them..I used to help him but he'll usually shoo me away to go back to my work..

Nya(nonya) whu sells newspapers at kallang mrt..had a helper(maybe a son)whu helps her to set up n close the stall..wears glasses until her eyes look big in a funny,cute ways. Always coming to Cheers to change 5-cents coints wif us..I remembered edison whu cursed her coz he hated countin the 5cents "-,- She also collects tin cans from the dustbins when free..

Uncle(who sleeps n eats n acc. Nya daily) SOmetimes he comes down to cheers to buy food n drinks n he'll start kacau-ing me but he means no harm. 5-cent change he always refused. Also collects tin cans wif Nya.

Auntie(the MRt cleaner)she haf speech problems but always v.jovial..v.popular to the mrt staff. i spotted her sitting and wheelin around in the office chair in the control station(wif the mrt officers around wif her) of course..Always buy ice-creams when the weather is super hot..can buy 3,4 each time..i think she shares wif the MRT staff..Always smuggle rubbish bags for me when Cheers run out of them..

Apek2(the Mrt cleaner)now he transferred to somewhere else but he's my fave. Always buy hot coffee from Cheers and he'll stand around to chit chat in malay,hokkien to me. We like to disturb each other, esp if he buys drinks or chocolate and i refused to give him back the change coz want him to 'belanja' me hha..as a joke onli..Hafis, my ex-colleague called him my godfather..i called him my god-grandfather :)

Pakcik(another MRt cleaner) always like to buy plain crackers to eat with coffee. Knew him when he asked mi to throw away water that he had bought from a mineral bottle coz he wanna fill in his coffee from home. Not often around but when he's around, juz brighten my day..esp last sunday when he popped in to buy a new type of biscuits since his usual. one ran out of stock. He once bought chocolate eclairs coz his throat was feelin dry...

OK,i tink i rather stay at cheers than look for better paying or quality jobs..didnt realise i had knew so much abt the old folks until i had blogged it down. Felt happier that i did, coz they'll always be part of my memories..My fave colleague is leaving so i'd thought i'll leave too, but tihnkin of the old folks tat i had knew from workin at Cheers juz made mi change my mind..=)

*happi*




Siti Nuraishah :+: Landed On :+: Thursday, October 28, 2004

12th October 1985