Thursday, November 04, 2004

Jus went in to yahoo.com and found out the results of the us presidential elections-'george bush wins 2nd term'. *heart skips a beat*..oh no,he already turned the world upside down after 4 years, now he's gonna turn it inside out..hopefully he turns it right la..um ya hopefully.

Oh,the clouds cried wif mi tonight..it was so beautiful though deep inside, i was a wreck..jus sat down under my void deck as i always do after work n just let a few tears slide by..i'm tired of coming home to face angry ppl..i'm tired of being the brunt of ppl's anger both at work n at home n everywhere i go..i'm tired of knowing that sometimes i'm the cause of ppl's anger for reasons i have no idea Why..and i'm tired of apologising for mistakes i didn't noe i had made in the first place..Saying sorry isnt the hardest thing..its Easy..S.O.R.R.Y k for whateva i had done to make all of u angry or sad or hurt..it wasnt in my deepest intentions..it wasnt even on my Mind to receive Anger from Anyone..i just wanna get thru the day with a smile..not from me,but from everyone else..its not easy i noe..i didnt smile much 2day..even if i did,maybe it was fake..can say trying to hard to let the sun comes out when its hiding n shivering behind the dark clouds..I'm Tired of Being ME,of Being NIce Jus so i can receive a Smile in return..P.A.T.H.E.T.I.C i say me..i'm tired of being Me..

Ppl says when the clouds cry,its because the loved ones that had passed away are crying cos of missing those who still walks the earth..Muslims believe that when drizzles occur, its a form of blessing...So is it a blessin that it rained coincidentally the moment when george bush was announced the winner?..

*40 mins later*OK,i'm in a better mood after crapping around wif my pj tkd friend hha..much much better so not gonna grouse further..*smiles*damn him,gave mi so many pictures of girls yet said none is his girlfriend..though one was his ex la,and i saw HUiling!!i saw my good jc friend n ex-classmate,huiling!!*happy* So long nvr see her liaoz so when saw her in the neo print he sent mi made mi so happi hha..but my friend,he looks gd after the surgery..i remembered huiling tellin mi dat oso..yup,he looks gd but still the crappy guy i noe la..whu else can cum wif such crap of sendin mi so many photos of girls wif him slingin his arm ard them, onli to noe that none is his gf..diaoz..

*5mins later*I am shit N.O.T.H.I.N.G to nobody or anybody..*shrugs*my existence on this earth is not justified. gdnitez


Siti Nuraishah :+: Landed On :+: Thursday, November 04, 2004

12th October 1985