Saturday, November 13, 2004

Against tears,pain,anger,denial,sadness..?Trying to stand resolute on the shaky ground..never to forget..easy to forgive..trust,distrust..mistrust..Everything rolls into one,they say..to become wat...complete mess..absolute nothingness..blur?nah,its clear..Sun is shining,its dark in my room..Sun is shining furiously,i don't feel da heat though..Fan is blowing but i dont feel the breeze..Its a beautiful day, for sure its gonna be..i feel untouched ..right here typing,i feel ..cold..on my own..

Scab on the leg/body part..like a past hurtful memory on one's life tat serves to be there as a reminder..tat never lets u 4get..sometimes it leaves a scar so dat u'll always remember it..dull,etching,itching blot on ur skin dat will never,ever go away..Pick,pick,pick on it to ease away the itch,the pain but it bleeds further as though like one whu pursue one's unhappiness to find the reason to end it all..in an attempt to start anew/fresh/stops the pain..it only serves to create a whole new circle of pain n itchiness again..jus like an attempt to find a cure to the unhappiness n pain, only to be reminded fully by it in the end, creating a new wave of pain n sadness..

S.E.N.S.E.L.E.S.S

"y u cry?i'm not dead yet"..yah,ur not.i am..deep inside..somehow,somewhere..something died..or is dying..



Siti Nuraishah :+: Landed On :+: Saturday, November 13, 2004

12th October 1985