Thursday, December 23, 2004

Was surfin thru friendster then came across tis frenz of mine whu had moved away v.long ago then i realised..i'm not a part of her life anymore..well,mayb not a big part as i used to be..i mean we were neighbours ..n p.sch buddies(till pri.3?) till she moved..to her new school,new neighbourhood,new life altogether..n i wasnt a part of that 'new life'..pretty sad ritez..but tats how life is i guess..Was lookin at her photo,n she looked exactly the same..flamboyant creature she is ar..always change her mind abt love thus kept changin her bf like changin clothes..but deep down,just a normal sweet friend..i was there when her parents' marriage were on the rocks..i saw the horrid part..i saw the end..i saw,but i,unlike her,is just lookin,not participatin..her mum's 2nd marriage came n a new family all born..n she grew up..wif the typical teen angst..all the typical teen experiences tats up n down..but i wasnt ard..coz w/o knowin,we juz drifted apart ar..esp wif the distance(she lives in extreme east,i lives in the centre)..the onli communication we got was when she visited her grandpa livin in my block..now she visits too,but nvr come up to my hse to chit chat like she used to do..now the onli communication we had is once in a blue moon sms..usually mi smsin her n she'll go 'who're u.i changed my no so i cant recognise ur no..'..sad ar..Missed her also..she was the first close friend i found after my best friend passed away .. Tt time when i had my friend,i hated her coz she would b wif her 2 sisters n glarin at mi n i'll b glarin back..??den we became friends..den she moved..now we're barely friends..

THen i looked at my other pri.sch friend whom i'm not so close but whom i always tot was like the belle of the school..she still is i tink..in those schools she went..but she looked diff..maybe coz she drew her eyebrows till looked like anime-sharp kinda eyebrows..not close but she always has her own life..which i always tot was an idealistic one..i wonder if her grandma is still ard..n her less-abled sis..dats the thing tat bonded us..we had less-abled sisters..but thats it..

The onli thing tyin us together is memories..which i dunno if the abv ppl still has them la..*shrugs*..Life is like the central train station or Cityhall..Anyway,all the best to her,the close friend whom we had grew apart from..life wasnt easy on her since young,hope she stays the gd but mischievous friend she always was to me..

Memories passed u by in different train stops..howeva,u cannot go back to the same station u once were at..U may looked thru the end of the train where the windows are(nel trains la) but like the nel train,wat u see thru it is dat the stops u once were at gets farther n farther away..till nothin more than a speck of light..n eventual darkness..*sighs*..tis is a depressing issue..nitez!

'Not a part of your life..not anymore..but we still havent say goodbye..so see ya till wheneva'


Siti Nuraishah :+: Landed On :+: Thursday, December 23, 2004

12th October 1985