Wednesday, January 12, 2005

"For a love thats true, i'll wait forever. No matter how long it'll take, i'll be waiting for the moment when we'll be together one day.."

K,i took that from paul's msn nick n sort of edited it till it rhymed abit lah..does it make sense?*frowns*i like to think it does..does it?hee..anyway,i'm feeling better after aikido trainin at tcc today..sensei is ritez when he said that if ur sick n not feelin well, juz come for training..i did n i dont regret it..felt so much alive..

n i got to partner wif this girl whu can like 'talk' to me n pointed wats wrong n ritez..i felt so much encouraged..someone in the DOjo can actually TALK to me ..but really, i should try to listen more with my mind than instead of wantin ppl to talk..heh..gradin is comin up soon n i'm still scared ar..i think first time gradings are always the hardest coz u dunno wat to expect really..i haf no idea wat to expect..same goes for my first tkd gradin(wah so long ago..i felt so old)..my first black belt tkd gradin..n now v.first aikido gradin..wahh..i felt much more encouraged when i confided in my partner today that i haf no confidence to go thru the gradin..her reply was 'dont worry.nobody has. juz look ard n try to follow'.."-.- Dotz!!..Must feel more confident in myself liaoz..

didnt go to sch today(hi everybody!) but i went to acc Ming to the sub.courts since she wanted to get the feel of goin there n write reports..went into this court where it continued its session b4 lunch..n can see its a super long case la..somethin abt someone got beaten up by family members in the house n blood stains in the kitchen..like alot of ppl involved until both ming n mi like v.blur lor..then the damn lawyer kept askin stupid qns regardin the photographs taken at the crime scene where he went n ask the witness e.g 'Is this your house?','can you see the toilet from here?', 'can you please point out where is the fridge', 'how many blood stains do you see?'..'are the 2 blood stains taken the same?'..stupid la,i mean i noe its juz procedures but it took him like half hour jus to ask abt the entire kitchen -.-..i was like 'get on wif it!!'..finally he got on but its still v.lengthy..i tink abt 7-8 ppl were involved ..i dunno if the victim died anot lei..but i noe one of the agressors went somethin like 'he fucked my younger brother's wife.how can i not get involved?'..n the lawyer was like 'can u pls repeat that statement' to the translator who was helpin to translate the witness's words..n i was like 'whoa..the lawyer said 'fuck' twice..'..in court somemore..COOL..

We gave up halfway when the court adjourned for dunno y also n walked around somemore..the foreigner's court was closed for the day i tink..n we went into another court where the malay judge was damn fierce la..we sat there for few mins coz it was clearin out already..then we gave up for that day n went shoppin for shoes at chinatown..i tink Ming is the only one whu's willin to walk around chinatown lookin for shoes lor..i was abit worried i was boring her out but she didnt mind coz she juz wants to look for shoes n explore chinatown(where i wasnt really that familiar ar)..finally she bought at chinatown point n we split coz i had to go for trainin n she's goin home b4 goin clubbin wif her friend..*smiles*it was fun today ming,but too bad i wasnt feelin all that great to hang out wif..

As i had said, aikido today was better la..at least i dun feel dat demoralised as i always feel when i go for trainings at TCC...then got tis japanese girl senior who lookd like Sailormars or that girl from love hina who practised kendo..so pretty like a jap.ghost like fara said..never partner wif her b4 n i dun tink ill like too..fara said she's v.graceful but forceful..first time partner wif her you'll end up havin bruises..wow..wat kind of magic she used in aikido liaoz..O.O!think i better stay away from her or she'll eat mi up for trainings..

Nothin else to do already..maybe will go sleep n go sch 2morrow..tink its gonna b a busy day wif the shootin of the school's auction ongoin..*sighs*Still a bit tired,but hopefully the fever will go away soon so i can function much more normally at a much faster speed..now life is like a bit slow motion so feelin a bit sianz..

in my life,i tink i need to haf PE..aikido is not that strenous to really burn my carbs much or get me as fit as i was in pJ..at this rate,by 3rd yr,i'll b too unfit to even pass napfa..considerin i always get high points for napfa, the idea of gettin bronze or even failin is v.yucky..haiz..shant wori much,will go play online dai dee now :D..

n mingsia,dont worri abt ur 'problem' much,juz treasure the times u haf while it lasts..=)


Siti Nuraishah :+: Landed On :+: Wednesday, January 12, 2005

12th October 1985