Xhausted..today..total zonk in n out..wondered how i got thru the sch day today..glad it wasnt a 'heavy' lessons day..but then again the breaks in btw kinda emphasise the 'stony' feelings..but today's break was packed totally wif hardly time to like breathe..well besides the 1hr waitin for VC to appear, the rest of the break went into polishin up the FW competition...

*yawns*..FW competition..ok la,like meemum said,we're not aiming for anythin below 2k hha..ambitious yes,but we deserved it after the 'hellish' time we were put thru by vc at the last moment that she wants us to polish our stuff up..poor lihui was like hopping mad already wif her..but she didnt get any wink of sleep so i can understand y ar..but mayb vc deserved it lor..like wants us to rush so fast for wat..farnie..then we learnt how to write 'tamil' wif uma's handwritten 'tamil' phrase on the FW's paper..pretty cool ar,make mi want to learn tamil..but then again, i dunno if we shud be writin from left to rite or the other way round..o.O..caryn's got the best 'tamil' handwriting hahaha!congrats:p..Anyway,everythin submitted liaoz.hopefully, she wont call us up again 2morrow ..HOPEFULLY..

Wonder y my previous post didnt get published..mayb its coz i closed the window b4 i saved it completely..it was abt horse-riding..i missed riding...i missed 'my' horse..which has a wild streak in him,n though he's a retired rachehorse, the fire still burns in him..kinda like me..retired tkd-er,but hopefully still got 'fire' to spar...yea well,havent been goin tkd for almost a mth coz wanna concentrate on aikido..maybe i wont come back ever to the nyp trainings..sometimes i feel that tkd shud implement the aikido system..nvr train for so long reverts back to a white belter..there are times i wish i can juz re-learn tkd from the beginnin n stick to that particular club instead of jumpin from wagon to wagon like now..from bendemeer to pj to a little of nyp..it gets tiring n i feel pretty lost la,even though i am still stickin wif Sir n Ma'am..

AIkido's gradin coming up soon..feel a little more confident though i cant say the same on the day itself la..after that,i'll probably start practising tkd on my own...need to feel that 'strength' that comes from practising tkd..Aikido is more harmonised n 'soft' n since its using others' strength, i cant really feel my own strength so to say la..maybe i need to learn more ..like sensei said, the need to boost one's inner strength....

While on this subject,me wanna crap abt the jap.aikido girl at tcc..wah..i tink i'm gonna called her 'sailormars' coz she reminded mi of that lor..came to training in perfect attire..Mi got to pair up wif her for the first time last week n its like 'whoa'..at first it was like 'oh shit,somebody save me'..she isnt strong as in muscular strong..but her inner strength is like phwoar..but she's excellent lor..though a bit 'violent' ..very ironic,very confusing.i shall not bother but she earned my respect n i hope she earned mine since i was quite a fast learner that day *pleased*....black belt tkd vs black belt aikido girl..phwoar..but too bad la,i 'shrank' a little when trained wif her coz somehow she's like fragile but violent, weak but strong that kinda girl..like porcelain but still not 'china' made material..jasper said i shud be more assertive wif my strength but dun dare lei..somehow stupidly,i dun dare use against ppl one..firstly coz really no strength la..secondly, though i'm in luv wif martial arts, i dun see the need to like use it against those who dun practise it...tats y i tend to shy away when ppl wanna see my stuff..anyway,i haf not much stuff to show:D..

*yawns*i'm exhausted n i'm still blogging..i dun tink i'm writin sense anyway..so gdnitez....As constant as the stars above,always know that U are loved..*hugs* how i noe of this quote..thru watchin rapunzel..Barbie rapunzel..-.- thx to my niece la..but it was quite a nice show..like revert back to childhood days for a while..but the animation is horrible..oh well..