Wednesday, January 05, 2005

The horrible weekend is over..Monday's blues are over..Tuesday is over..wah,its 5th Jan already..Hey,itz 1 year exactly to when i started workin at Cheers..too bad,i quitted b4 my 1 year is up..I missed workin there(of course la.its been like so long!)..n ya,still havent return the uniforms:D..Missed Meng Yong,Brenda,Yati..but definitely not the TL or Manager..missed my old BIC though..

My sis is still crying..like 4days liaoz..n my mum is super tired out already..n my dad dun seemed to give a damn as usual..n i felt guilty that these 2 days i've been out at sch until super late coz of classes n training..tomorrow too would be another late day coz of extra training..*sighs*

SEnsei came back to teach today, after like a month's leave..maybe the sch nvr pay him to teach in December..Missed his wise words..n funny tales abt himself n aikido..when he came back to teach, everyone dont play play anymore, even mi n fara hee..i dont mean to play play la but sometimes i really wish can like Talk n Ask qns in the dojo,it'll be MUch Much easier..plus the facts i missed the HQ's trainings alot of times too..cannot tahan being slammed around by the seniors at HQ..."-.- They'll make mi regret learnin aikido..Learnt alot from sensei today..how manners r v.impt to a person..how Strength is not valuable but 'ki' is..i tink 'ki' meant inner strength of someone..Ai is harmony of course..so its wat?the art of harmonising your inner strength martial art?hee..somethin like dat la..N he said that being a small person doesnt mean you'll be easily overpowered..in fact, its the other way round..if u haf much 'ki' dat is..Gradin is on 6th Feb..argh,i'm gonna die lor!!

Read yirang's blog abt jc days..yea,i missed it too n i still havent collect my certificate:D..Jc days really made one grew up i guessed..i knew i did somehow..for sure, from my old blog, i knew that jc days were my toughest yet; the soured relationship btw my dad, the demands of jc schoolwork, the feeling of 'loss' i had coz i was like in totally new environment in the west..the struggles to succeed or simply tryin to cope with the workload, or even trying to learn how to 'study smart' n not hard..heh,i guessed i nvr really learn that last one coz see where i am lo..but i screwed up my Maths paper on my own..Remembered how i let my family prob affected the paper i was sittin for the day after..remembered how lost, n blur i was doing the paper..dun even noe wat i was doin la..but thx gdness i still scrapped by wif an 'E'..Still,it wasnt gd enuf..In jc, my results were never gd enuf ar for both the teachers n myself..the only 'A' i got was the v.first geog test in j1..

Of course, the frennies..though i dun really noe most of them in depth in j1, j2 really tested our bond n strength..tryin to shove the schoolwork n tests n exams off our shoulders together..tryin to inspire others while tryin to believe in myself..i dun really noe many ppl in pj though but i really loved being ard the tkd ppl apart from the frennies ar..Sylvia,isabelle,yu han,edmund,wei ru all..Saw the 3 guys recently n i was so freaking happi ar..didnt recognise them at first but was like totally overjoyed when saw them..coz like a year gone by without seein them..Missed the PJ training..yar,i noe jessie buggin us to reply to her email abt the PJ tkd alumni but none of us like bothered hha!!..jessie..har,dun like her dat much either..still dun for dunno y..Can swear by that PJ trainin is MUCh MUch better than NYP lor!..though not as much events like friendly matches, its more structured n bonded coz jc batch of taekwondoists are usually v.small onli ar..HOw we trained like every wed(when its a short day n everyone else disappear) in the Atrium of the school which is at the Entrance of the school n near the principal's office so Everybody whu walks past can SEe us SO Clearly in WHITE doboks..How we rushed to be near the library coz got aircon blowing out hha..Hey,the results like comin out soon too ritz..wah,damn fast..

N yea,my monkey came back..sweet..missed havin him ard these past few days..thx for comin back into my life..*smileS*

Nitez all


Siti Nuraishah :+: Landed On :+: Wednesday, January 05, 2005

12th October 1985