Saturday, February 12, 2005

And a HUGE wave of sadness washed over me...the relationship that never is meant to happen,the love that never gets to bloom..the 'you' and 'i' that never means to be 'us' ever..the years of waiting for it to happen...however,destiny n fate is stronger..we will never be 'we' for once..foreva..so y cant u stop popping back into my life like an irritating commercial..yet one that never fails to bring back fond memories...DAMN..i am so darn hopeless sometimes...

The one whu teach mi that Love can Be just a friendly game..that no one has to get hurt if both of the parties noe the boundaries btw love n the line of breaking hearts..the love that can be simple n sweet n carefree juz coz both of us noe it is never meant to be,nor will it even started...the lines we always knew not to cross..Snapshots of simple memories of just us two..as friends..n that'll be all we know we can ever be...though sometimes i,maybe you too had hoped for something more...yet i also noe i deserved something better...n i noe its not in you..too bad..so sad..*shrugs*..thats y everyday i see my monkey,i noe he's dat 'something better'..though he taught mi that love can nvr be simple,he also taught so much more..n sometimes,its better loving a rough edge than being slipped over n tripped by a smooth eel of love..if u get wat i mean..i always knew i love a motorbiker more than someone with a smooth set of wheels..but too bad,i have none of that ever..not tat i'll haf anytime soon..not wif careful little monkey whu prefers a set of four wheels than two...

i missed the monkey..yes i do..coz its been 2days since CNY n today i ended so late as usual..n tomorrow i gotta buy a new phone so cant spend the day wif him much..if at all la..its v.rare these days tat we haf a full day juz to ourselves that kind so juz haf to make do wif wat we haf for now...seeing him everyday even for a second is enough of a blessin so i shall not complain..

Raihan came over yesterday n cried n tok her heart out abt her 'breakin' relationship..strangely,after she tok,she wasnt so mad at him n even called him to fetch him..hmm..she was explainin to me slowly n even showing mi pictures of her bf's "misdeeds" n ..v.strange..its enuf he lied to her for a year(thx gdness it wasnt somethin HUGE)..but the fact remains,he lied..n he tried to cover up wif stuff or shit that onli got thrown back at his face la..*shrugs*..photos are pictoral evidence,n she got it..n he tried to bluff his way out n got caught..wat is tis..seriously,i told her its enuf he lied to her for a year..he tried to bluff his way out for fear of hurtin her or makin her angry...like i ask her,is he Loving her or Fearing her more..hmz,the more i write it,the more bull it sounded so i shall stop writing..all the best to her...strangely enuf,though we are the best of friends, we dont seem to have gd opinions of each other's bfs much..i mean,monkey wif his hot-cold temper sometimes coz he tot he was being left out..n my friend's bf who's seemingly paranoid over his gf being ard other New guys..she said it though,the trust is there...i shall believe..though with a hint of doubt..Maybe like she said la,malay couples are like dat..*shrugs*i dunno,n i dont really care ..All i noe is that from the start,i wasnt always pleased with his "over-protectiveness'" and seemingly "jealousy" that he wants to spend the time wif her more than her spendin wif others..then treasure it la..

oh ya..no more liaoz..its 114am n i shall go n sleep...Happi birthday lihui!!

happi bday to u
happi bday to u
happi bday Dear Lihui!!!!
happi bday to u *hugs*

happi bday dear girl,hope u'll stay as happi n joyful n positive as always..so glad to have u in my life ever since the day we stepped into poly 2gether..um figuratively la..*hugs*!happy birthday!!

Siti Nuraishah :+: Landed On :+: Saturday, February 12, 2005

12th October 1985