Thursday, March 10, 2005

miss soo reminded mi of a cat..yah,tat tot struck mi on the way home..yah,a cat of all animals..like a cat thats ready to pounce at us anytime soon..well today la..tats the feelin i 'got' from her..like somehow she's angry tat we didnt do well for her test,so her hints for the exam were like full of sarcasm la..like a cat,she was 'hisssing' at us b4 she can like pounce..like she wanna smack our heads wif her claws,but has to refrain from it in case it gets her expelled that kind..

anyway,i tink i'm developing asthma again or something wif my incessant coughings..its gettin worse la,n earlier on,my throat got ticklish n i dunno y so i was coughin like mad on the way home n tryin to stop myself from puking my dinner out..i tot i would actually puke b4 i reach my hse..then maybe its like ppl can see tis girl maybe got like drunk too early n so pukin her brains out on her way home hha..no,that is not a gd impression.i am not drunk...bleah x.X so reached home n puke my guts out n my mum was like hollerin herself hoarse lecturin mi from the living room..:D..bleaargh

anyway,today went down for the Lime meeting with caryn n the rest of the 'writers' n ms ang n ms???(from student affairs) to meet the editor down at the nearby tech.park near sch..it went ok but she wants ideas n the Student Affairs preferred us to email them First b4 we emailed Lime..ok fine..n miss ang was v.farnie la..she kept PUSHIN literally the articles to stella to read even though she said she'll read it Later in her office..miss ang is really the SA n publicity woman of the sch man..

then again,i dun feel really Safe wif the capital 's' without azhar n ms. teng teng around for guidance la..or even mr.yap my sec sch english teacher..

i d.o.n.t f.e.e.l s.a.f.e
n they want us write abt campus activities n events..which may or may not be that fun la..it sounded v. newsletter-ish which i had stayed away from since like sec sch...besides teh fact that i wrote n published the first editon of the library newsletter on my own, wif some help from huiwen n the library teacher..but after that i ran away hahaha!no wild horses can drag mi back or make me write school newsletters la:P!!

but like norisha,my jc frenz said,its juz 'lime' u noe..juz go for it la..i.don't.feel.safe. ..like tis is a bit way over my head even though i hardly done anythin cept write one pathetic piece of article WHICH ms.ang edited so much until i cant even recognise my own piece of work la..n she can still mixed them up wif leroy's one..-.-!n there i went like 'no,i didnt write this i swear.Tis is not my kind of writin la..i dun use words like bumper crop'..er,tat sounded more like some harvest ongoin at a farm..n she replied she edited it ..but she still got our articles mixed up..nvm la ar..

anyway,that was that la. it was nice steppin into mediacorp publishin n all n i dun mind doin freelance work there..But for now,i'm tinkin twice abt sittin at the desk and write all my life ar..even though i love to write..can i xplore other options first?:D isnt that wat poly life is all abt..n yea,i still dun feel safe without the teachers' guidance ard..maybe i shud stick back to doin projects n write for azhar's works n stay put ok..instead of goin over my head n try reaching for the moon..is tis overconfidence?or lack of it?monkey said its lack of it..norisha said i should juz continue writin la..like she said,its just 'lime'..squish squish..

n i went norisha's hse for the first time today la..her younger sibs are so adorable n so 'guai'!compared to my niece n nephew la..her sibs like actually sat down n read books n studied..n i was like 'whoaa..'maybe i shud employ norisha to be my behavioural specialist for my niece n nephew..Thanks for lettin mi come ur house girl,sorri i came n stayed so late..troubled ur family onli >.
so dat was dat..plus more coughings..bleargh..

n i missed monkey..as a frenz n as my dear..*sighs*

maybe norisha is rite,we shud juz be together n like haf fun n not tink of the seriousness of it all..but it is a relationship after all..n wats a relationship wif no future right..*ponders*..right?like if we do decide tat we want to get married,then how..i mean,we already noe that its wif each other we want to be wif thru thick n thin from the v.start..so doesnt that means we wan to haf a future 2gether?..can we just like haf fun while it lasts n not haf a future 2gether..can it work dat way?..but i tink that'll only hurt us more right?..how ar..*sighs*..buh byezzz

Siti Nuraishah :+: Landed On :+: Thursday, March 10, 2005

12th October 1985